piratelove

whoa i forgot about this thing. haha. i have been so obsorbed by school wowsers. well i moved to pasadena and here i am. im all by my self which means i have a high rent. its lonely and freezing in my apartment. im not comfortable ere. i guess its not me but it doesnt have to be becuase im only here for school and i basically only sleep here a couple nights a week. so its like a really nice garage with a bathroom and fridge and stuff.

its finals week and i don care anymore. ive been doing pretty much nothing all day besides procrastinating beacuse i dont know what to write for my modernism final. so im writing in this becuase i still dont know what to write. its sooooo weird living alone. i am soooo scared of spiders. i got a dustbuster so that i could vacuum them up and ont touch them with paper towel or anything grosssssssssss.

i have one sentence to my final so far/After World War II, America boosted into a slighty less elaborate version of the
consumer driven nation that we currently exist as./ i got nothing else.

everytime i have finals since i got an atm card, i go online and buy things instead of doing my work. and i didn that today. i got jason a present for xmas, invested in one for brittany, and bought myseld some shoes i reeaallllllyyyy dont need but are verrrrryyyyy cute. im so glad school is over in four days i cannot beleive it. its only for 3 weeks again and im right back january 8th but whatever. life is pretty good i guess. no major issues. just busy. majoring in editing at school, i have so far done that the least in the 4 semesters i have had there. funny. im going to stop eating fish again. i started so i could be healthy but now i feel bad again for the fish and the other animals that need fish. happy feet taught me a lesson i ignored for a year. :P ok ive been on here way too long. my paper is due in 13 hours. bye.

i really really hate video games. i used to love them :(

pirates of the caribbean was so good and fun. it was the same as the first one but with different monsters. and then i got free pizza today and im gonna get free boca burgers tomorrow. and then its my favorite month ever, july, and i love it

and theeennnnn...
on the 4th of july it took and hour to park at the beach and then 2 hours to get to indio. jason shot his gun 4 times. then we looked through my telescope at the moon. it looked the same through his binoculars lol. so were gonna get an extra better eye peice. its hot right now. kyle jason and his mom are playing star wars monopoly right now and i cant stop thinking about dane cook quotes. they gave me vodka gross. im pretending to write a paper so i dont have to play. i wrote a little bit but im taking a break to write this :D

i<3jason. i also heart kyle. jasons mom is super cool too.

im no longer whAt i used to be which isnt a bad thing but its noot a great thing so much either. im happy.:) but yeah. its really an obvious thing if u no what im talking about. i love him very much and its right but i wish i were me 2 months ago.

school is fun. busy. work is fun sometimes. most of the time. i need to move prontooooooooo :P i want to go to the beach and skip every class. i feel like my chest is going to explode. the flavor is bicard-iey howevr thats spelled with watermelon. i dont feel good.

brb!!!!

Maddie maddie maddie maddie maddie maddie

ive never been drunk still though so go me :)

rrrrrrrrraaaarrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>:(

{whiiiinnneeeee noiseeeeee}

love,
Maddie

asshole.

i miss my friends so much.

school is much better this term so far :)

radiohead

bob barker is really old. and tan.









im watching he price is right in hawaii. wth lol. i need to go outside but i want someone to come with me. will somebody go with me? :)we can go right now. just come over.

screw my dad.



my tuition in payed for.


im trying to not use profanity.


darn him.

OMG IM GOING TO DIE FINALS AHHHH IM GOIND TO DIE

i dont like coffee anymore, and i keep tearing my dumb contacts!!!!! freakin hell.




:) think happy thoughts :)

ahhhh!! so much work i dont know what to do!!!!!! work, school, school, homework, work, eat, school, work, sleep, throw some jasonian in there, throw some screaming in frusteration in there, throw some my car is dying, but im schedualed to get contacts later in thereeeeee. uuuuugh. i told what i needed to tell him. wasnt how i expected it, but is it for anyone? probably not as much as i think. it went well. i was mean on sunday night. ah theres too much going on. i like breaks. woo! :) peace out

the view from the school that im currently angry at. :)



this old guy was carrying his wifes leopard carry on bag at the airport..awesommeee.



Makaha day time.



Makaha night time

:D

im so happy i could cry. im holding back. i can;t describe how special hawaii is to me. when i got off the plane today it felt like i was home again. the only thing that could make me hppier is if jason were here with me. and ALL my friends in fact, it would be so much fun. aw :) its raining. i paddled out in it but there were no waves. but there was a reef under me! and either a fat turtle or a shark about 4 yards away from me. AH! oH! i had a bowl of poke mmmmm, and some ahi wontons mmmm, and chocolate macadamia nuts mmmmm. i dont know if i ever poste it but i decided to eat sushi/fish again sooo ya. :D mmmmmm hawaiian/asian food. and hawaiian sun juice is my favorite! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeee!!! :):):):):)

hmmmm, my stomach hurts. dehydrated. found something good. confused. like always. i like showers.

animal collective makes me feel good inside haha

sleeeeepy still.

weekend off!

lots of homework :(

cool im writing a paper on radiohead. except that even though its a cool concept, im still procrastinnating. t=sfk crap my widgets just came up outta nowhere. hah. well anyways since im here i might as well write something...i have come to realize that im either too independent for my own good or i am just antisocial. or i just don't care. im not sure, but i realized that im one of those. or all. i dont know lol. at school, i just listen to my ipod, draw in my sketchbook, and purposly not sit next to anyone unless their like, "hey come sit with us" i dont know why i do that. im not shy. what the heck is my problem . i get in to my own little world and not talk to anyone unless spoken to. its stupid. at work i think i talk alot though. noticably more than anywhere else where it kinda annoys me . i need a bloody balance! bah! im just a silly girl...who needs to do their homework. i want to go back to hawaii right now. hawaii rules. l.a. is dumb. thats what i says. k . peace out

i went to the used last night with brittany who is dating my brother and it was soooo much fun. i dont know why but i feel it is necessary to write about every show i go to. well i do know why and its becuase i have soo much fun. and its fun. i regret to say all the openers were really bad especially 30 seconds to mars, i hope bert throws up on them or simething theyre so bad. mind boggling badness. :( jared leto is a butthead and it in love with himself. so there was this 40 year old guy sitting next to me and he was rocking out like crazy but he was crazy and he is from the 80's so it was annoying and then i fell into his lap when he was sitting and then during the used he told me i rocked lol. then they started playing the screaming songs and i sung/screamed along and i dont think he thought i rocked so much anymore. on the way out brittany and i were trying to get through everyone and these guys were behind us saying "come on hey! let them through, let them through, everyone outta the way" and people were like "who is it? is it one of the bands?" lol and then one of the guys was feeling me up from behind and it was disgusting and i wasnted to turn around and punch him but i didnt and i dont know that i would. anyways that was gross and we had so much fun and the music wasnt loud enouugh and our seats werent close enough and my eyes are too blind. such is life,it was still really amazing.

oh and i got my year reveiw finally and i did really good and i got a raise so yippy. i want to write the details but then it looks like im bragging and i dont like that. i dont like it when juice wheres tights!

i cant get this out of my hair! bloody spray paint.

bloody hell im such a dork!!!!!!!! i bought this really cool book called "the Pirates! In an adventuare with the Scientists," but thats not why im a dork. well i mean yeah, i guess thats a little factor if you wanna get a ll technical.

ooohhohooooo my eyes are sun burnt. the focets are empty, its kinda funny-nuthing comes out but it makes a roar. the medication from my ear infection has made me so rather loopier than normal. i don't remember things, and after i eat i eel like im starving but yet the need to barf. strange things. i went to an art show saturday night down town and brittany's brothers' band, Dante Esperanza, played and it was really fun. it was so scary it was fun. the art was awesome and people are jerks and ruined somebody's peice- it was like 100+ camel cigerettes packed neatly and people took them and messed the whole thing up, it really pissed me off. but it wasnt unexpected. anyways, we went on the roof, the building was like a wherehouse, every story was a huge room with pillars and echoes. exactly like in brice almighty where God lived. i love their music, its kind of uncomparable to other bands wich is good, but if i had to compare them the closest thing would be bright eyes. its really great. well, i had an awesome weekend, a fish ran in to my leg, i saw a potato bug, a mutant/giant grasshopper flew on me after brittany tried stepping on it, hiked down a beautiful cove, saw some crabs. everytime i drive with brittany no matter who is driving, we normally have no idea where we're going and we accidently make our way their, its cool. i want to learn to play the guitar really well and "shred!" like the shredder. i have no idea how to play anymore, not a freakin clue.

If you ever crawl inside an old hollow log and go to sleep, and while you're in there some guys come and seal up both ends and then put it on a truck and take it to another city, boy, I don't know what to tell you.

oh yeah does anyone wana see the blood brothers on june 17? cuz i dont wanna go alone.

does anyone wanna come and do a beach clean up thingy with me tomorrow>??? it'll be fUUUuuunnnnnnnn ;)i know everyone wants to wake up early and gooooooooooooooo :D :D :D :D

sick of working. burnt out. blah. my feet are spaz's. i have tomorrow off! :D hoorayy!!

the new weezer song sucks. i would like to thank rivers for making me wait another 2 years for an album thats gonna suck. you suck rivers, BRING BACK MIKEY WELSH!

IN OTHER NEWS... I love chocolate, therefore i love Easter cuz "they" give me chocolate.. :D